i've gone down the wrong path... made the wrong turn, and yet, u still love me, God.. when can i climb out of this hole that i dug myself into? not for years to come and its nobody's fault but mine.. the smile on my face is hard work and is the result of asking God for strength.. only God knows my heart... can i ask for a transplant? coz i think i could use a new one..
im still undecided on what to do after i come back from korea.. work? work where? study? study what?.. u may not understand but its not an easy choice for me.. or maybe i think too much.. i dont know...
sorry ppl around me if u feel i treat u badly.. i'll try my best to be the old Jeannette again... just yesterday, i felt like my old self again.. the cheerful one that encourages people, smiles and all.. but today, i feel all these troubles coming back to me... haunting me.. i really need God by my side, to hold my hand, stroke my hair and tell me its ok coz He'll never leave me nor forsake me... sighhhh.. so depressing...
