i cannot tahan doing nothing at home liao... ggrrrrrr... seriously.. its killing me!! i've been waiting for the call from my previous interview.. is it really not gonna come? been going out with my friends and my tabung is getting shallower by the week coz its just output and no input.. sobs!! its really frustrating... so much for putting my faith in God.. man.. i waver very fast right?? sorry God.. im really impatient... :"(
my sis is going to Johor soon.. my bro was the first to leave the house and embark on his independent journey after his spm.. then it was me who went for internship but im already back.. now its my sis's turn... sighhh... who is gonna jaga me when im sick?? who to kacau and irritate when im hyper? who to talk to at home? sighhh... sadnessssss....
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Monday, September 20, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
surprise..
God surprises me.. i went for an interview that i didnt think i'd get called for coz i felt as though there was no hope but suddenly on tuesday morning, there came this call asking me to go for the interview that very afternoon! imagine how i panicked! i wasnt even sure of how to get there! my kind mom teman-ed me there coz nerves+stressed+driving is definately not a good equation. searching for what to wear, my documents, what to say, what to expect... wow.. it was just crazy for that few hours.. the interview was okay.. okay+bad = ??.... idk.. its all in God's hands.. if He wants it for me, if its His will then i know He'll let me get the job. so i need not think so much and worry.. which leads to trusting and putting our faith in Him.. =)
i chatted with Sheryl recently and she shared testimonies with me.. i realised that God surprises us in situations.. when we meet a dead end, feeling hopeless and having no way to turn to, there is always God and the Holy Spirit with us..
should i dare myself to ask God to surprise me? surprise me with unexpected situations.. but being the coward and penakut that i am, i dont think i have that courage to utter that sentence to God.. well.. God knows me best.. my future is in his hands.. Surprise me? =)
i chatted with Sheryl recently and she shared testimonies with me.. i realised that God surprises us in situations.. when we meet a dead end, feeling hopeless and having no way to turn to, there is always God and the Holy Spirit with us..
should i dare myself to ask God to surprise me? surprise me with unexpected situations.. but being the coward and penakut that i am, i dont think i have that courage to utter that sentence to God.. well.. God knows me best.. my future is in his hands.. Surprise me? =)
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Together-ness
I just realised that i didnt blog about my adventures in Korea.. omg.. how could i not do that? but then again, i think no one reads my blog already and i've already written an account of what happened everyday in my little note book that i carried while i was in Korea.. A small smile appears on my face everytime i think about that time i spent in Korea with Jane and how God was truly with me every step of the way.. (thanks everyone who prayed for me!). when we got lost and gained amazing opportunities that seemed impossible.. God was truly awesome! its as though it was just a dream.. thank u SO MUCH GOD! u know how much that meant to me just to be able to set foot in that land! =)
back to the reason of what i wanted to blog about.. the church retreat that was on Saturday - Sunday. honestly, i didnt expect anything from the retreat. yes, i prayed about it.. but deep down, i thought that we were just going to spend time there and come back home again. Aaron asked if i could help with the bbq dinner and i had to go buy the charcoals, starter, borrow the skewers and other bbq stuff. thanks to Melissa who provided most of the bbq stuff and Aaron who followed up with me to ensure everything was ok.
met in church on Saturday morning. left later than planned and Bentong was supposedly 1 hour away only. Aaron's friend Beng Huat came along for the retreat. i felt encouraged to see a new person in church these few weeks and him even coming for the retreat was a surprise. i kept in mind that i had to be friendly coz i know how it feels to be lonely and leftout among all these ppl that u dont know. Christine and I were in Aaron's car along with Beng Huat and off we went.
upon arriving at our destination, it was actually better than i expected. having been to prefect camps every year in school made me accustomed to the lousy toilets and bug infected beds. but this place was well maintained.. or is it because its new? idk.. the only problem was that the hall was really HOT! i can survive without aircon. really. the aircon in my house gets turned on like once in 1-2 months? so believe me when i say that it was hot. lol.
lunch was okay. was really hungry by that time coz breakfast was 3 oat crunch biscuits and 1 bun for me. shared cendol with Melissa after lunch at this shop that makes their own ice cream. not bad too. we headed back and was told that games were postponed coz there were still more ppl coming. played cards on the stage instead. Simon, Andrew and Beng Huat played with us too. it was fun playing with people u never played with and also fellowshipping with each other coz we YA-ians have not spent much time together for such a long time. it was good. =)
then came service time. there was some probs with the set up of the instruments. only 1 mike could be used. i wasnt really affected by that. before the preaching by AKF ended, Simon started the fire for the bbq without a starter. talk bout skill eh? the caretaker of the place then asked us not to bbq in the building's compound so we moved to the stairs. as the night grew deeper, we could not see what were we bbq-ing and we innovative ppl used torch lights. then it started to drizzle and our umbrellas went up. honestly, as i look back, it was much more fun with all the difficulties faced. everyone helped each other. it was fun. =)
cleared up the food and took a very refreshing bath.. felt so good after the bath since i was sweaty and smelly during the bbq.. had devotion led by aunty Linda in the girls dorm. it was a powerful session where in just those few minutes, i felt some ppl open up and give opinions on their thoughts. we grew about an inch closer? all glory to God! =) played games after that at on the stage in the hall again. i initially thought we'll play till 3-4am? but we lasted only till 1am+. i was a little bit disappointed but i think everyone was tired. going back to the dorm, my eyes were tired but my mind was still awake. how to sleep? plus the snoring. it was long before i got to sleep. then i was awaken 3 times by the baby boy crying/grumbling.
woke up with huge eye bags as i stare into the mirror to brush my teeth. not enough time to bathe. brief morning prayer which my group finished 1st. since breakfast had not arrived, decided to take a walk with Victoria. met with the transportation manager/breakfast delivery while on our walk. ate breakfast and was sleepy during service. sorry. couldnt help it. walked to the river for water baptism. happy for them. =) we then had a semi comp on skiding pebbles on water. mom was kinda good at it. haha. after lunch, it was time to pack and head home. afew of us went to the hot srpings and it was disappointing! the kolam looked dirty but we dipped our feet into the water anyway. haha.
went back home on this really winding road. i was in Aaron's car with Beng Huat, tigress, bow bear and another bear. didnt feel dizy at first and was chatting with them. was happy that i wasnt getting dizzy but it was short lived. a small lump started to build in my throat and my head was getting heavy. decided to sit back and close my eyes. few mins later, we joined the main highway. thank God! i really couldnt take the winding roads any longer! came back home and snuggled on my bed coz my head was really heavy and wasnt feeling that good. slept till 7pm.
as the title says, together-ness is really important. though we only spent 2days together, i felt that we grew a little closer. overcoming troubles, working together makes us unite and understand each other. i guess God did answer my prayer that it'll be a great time there and have an encounter with God. this experience proves that u can have fun in simple situations. no need to splurge a sum of money. all u need is great people and An Awesome Almighty God. =)
back to the reason of what i wanted to blog about.. the church retreat that was on Saturday - Sunday. honestly, i didnt expect anything from the retreat. yes, i prayed about it.. but deep down, i thought that we were just going to spend time there and come back home again. Aaron asked if i could help with the bbq dinner and i had to go buy the charcoals, starter, borrow the skewers and other bbq stuff. thanks to Melissa who provided most of the bbq stuff and Aaron who followed up with me to ensure everything was ok.
met in church on Saturday morning. left later than planned and Bentong was supposedly 1 hour away only. Aaron's friend Beng Huat came along for the retreat. i felt encouraged to see a new person in church these few weeks and him even coming for the retreat was a surprise. i kept in mind that i had to be friendly coz i know how it feels to be lonely and leftout among all these ppl that u dont know. Christine and I were in Aaron's car along with Beng Huat and off we went.
upon arriving at our destination, it was actually better than i expected. having been to prefect camps every year in school made me accustomed to the lousy toilets and bug infected beds. but this place was well maintained.. or is it because its new? idk.. the only problem was that the hall was really HOT! i can survive without aircon. really. the aircon in my house gets turned on like once in 1-2 months? so believe me when i say that it was hot. lol.
lunch was okay. was really hungry by that time coz breakfast was 3 oat crunch biscuits and 1 bun for me. shared cendol with Melissa after lunch at this shop that makes their own ice cream. not bad too. we headed back and was told that games were postponed coz there were still more ppl coming. played cards on the stage instead. Simon, Andrew and Beng Huat played with us too. it was fun playing with people u never played with and also fellowshipping with each other coz we YA-ians have not spent much time together for such a long time. it was good. =)
then came service time. there was some probs with the set up of the instruments. only 1 mike could be used. i wasnt really affected by that. before the preaching by AKF ended, Simon started the fire for the bbq without a starter. talk bout skill eh? the caretaker of the place then asked us not to bbq in the building's compound so we moved to the stairs. as the night grew deeper, we could not see what were we bbq-ing and we innovative ppl used torch lights. then it started to drizzle and our umbrellas went up. honestly, as i look back, it was much more fun with all the difficulties faced. everyone helped each other. it was fun. =)
cleared up the food and took a very refreshing bath.. felt so good after the bath since i was sweaty and smelly during the bbq.. had devotion led by aunty Linda in the girls dorm. it was a powerful session where in just those few minutes, i felt some ppl open up and give opinions on their thoughts. we grew about an inch closer? all glory to God! =) played games after that at on the stage in the hall again. i initially thought we'll play till 3-4am? but we lasted only till 1am+. i was a little bit disappointed but i think everyone was tired. going back to the dorm, my eyes were tired but my mind was still awake. how to sleep? plus the snoring. it was long before i got to sleep. then i was awaken 3 times by the baby boy crying/grumbling.
woke up with huge eye bags as i stare into the mirror to brush my teeth. not enough time to bathe. brief morning prayer which my group finished 1st. since breakfast had not arrived, decided to take a walk with Victoria. met with the transportation manager/breakfast delivery while on our walk. ate breakfast and was sleepy during service. sorry. couldnt help it. walked to the river for water baptism. happy for them. =) we then had a semi comp on skiding pebbles on water. mom was kinda good at it. haha. after lunch, it was time to pack and head home. afew of us went to the hot srpings and it was disappointing! the kolam looked dirty but we dipped our feet into the water anyway. haha.
went back home on this really winding road. i was in Aaron's car with Beng Huat, tigress, bow bear and another bear. didnt feel dizy at first and was chatting with them. was happy that i wasnt getting dizzy but it was short lived. a small lump started to build in my throat and my head was getting heavy. decided to sit back and close my eyes. few mins later, we joined the main highway. thank God! i really couldnt take the winding roads any longer! came back home and snuggled on my bed coz my head was really heavy and wasnt feeling that good. slept till 7pm.
as the title says, together-ness is really important. though we only spent 2days together, i felt that we grew a little closer. overcoming troubles, working together makes us unite and understand each other. i guess God did answer my prayer that it'll be a great time there and have an encounter with God. this experience proves that u can have fun in simple situations. no need to splurge a sum of money. all u need is great people and An Awesome Almighty God. =)
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