Swing

wow.. its been almost a year since i posted something! i guess its a good thing as well coz no one visits my blog anymore?? hehehe.. i can syiok sendiri now! wheeee~

i was all smiles yesterday coz of the smooth traffic and im all frowns today thanks to the sluggish unmoving traffic. i was angry with my manager coz he asked me to take this road and it was so jam! in the end, the other road he took was better (i think) coz he reached home 30mins before me!

anyways, lots of thoughts always go thru my mind.. from one thing, i can go a long long way till i cant remmeber how my first thought lead to this thought now! lols.. i booked my flight to australia few months ago.. i think it was in may? and now... i dont feel like going... i was so very excited before.. but now, i dont feel like going.. i cant change anything coz the flight is booked and my friend has planned things for me. oh well, come what may....

it happened again.. this thing that im so very afraid of.. i feel like im an egg, that rolls around casually on a smooth surface and before you know it, the egg drops flat on the ground.. *splat*!! it takes awhile to paste the shell pieces back together.. and the cracks still remain..

why must it be this way? tu.. porque?? wae?? i always seem to choose the rocky path, with full of obstacles... wrong timing? perhaps.. wrong target? i think so too.. i better u-turn before i hit the deadend head on! but..but... the car is accelerating.. by itself? maybe.. most probably.. its always this way..

how i wish th prophecy isnt true! thats something that is very important to me.. is that what U really want for me? i constantly covet others.. wishing i have what they are having.. that smile.. that laughter.. that feeling.. it seems so far away.. i cant see the end of the tunnel.. i'll continue walking.. stumbling.. getting up again.. sprinting. running.. getting out of breath. collapse?? nahhh.. i'll just take a breather and continue running on! =)