Wilderness

I'm tired.. i want to get to Heaven.. where there is no pain nor tears.. i dont wanna feel hurt anymore.. or i just wanna go somewhere that i can disappear.. i dont wanna study.. i dont wanna work.. i dont wanna do anything.. sick of everything.. i know God is with me.. i know He loves me.. but im just so tired of going thru situations Lord.. of living life.. of doing what im doing everyday.. what's my purpose? why am i born? i wait for Sunday everytime.. the moment when i can be in God's presence, where all my worries fade away.. but the moment i step back into the real world, these feelings come back.. i want to reflect God's love to others.. i wanna be an example of God's child to others. but with me being like this, how am i going to do it Lord? i just want to get into my car.. and drive on a road that never ends.. just keep on driving till the day im supposed to go back to be with my Heavenly Father.. Wondering around in the wilderness of my life.. where is the path that leads me out? i wanna find it soon.. coz im too tired already.. too tired..