believe it or not, this is what everyone seeks.. attention from God, ur parents, siblings, friends, boss, colleagues, that person.. was a lil quiet at work today and it was what i noticed today.. this girl trying hard to get the attention of this guy. this guy trying to show how cool is he to this girl.. i dont deny that i too seek attention at times, but, it gets really tiring..
1 hour ago i was smiling to myself, and now, im already feeling down.. how fast can someone's emotions change? its simply amazing.. each time i tell myself no, its just my brain speaking but my heart and fingers dont listen.
didnt go to church yesterday coz i wasnt feeling good since saturday.. the weekend felt strange coz there was no church.. woke up today wondering what day was it.. its so hard for me to fit into this new environment, the new church.. they are just a totally different bunch of people.. i just want to give up sometimes.. being a visitor and a regular are 2 totally different things.. a visitor just looks at the surface.. whereas the regular is a part of the team.. involved in the inside story.
this is nothing right? its not even a problem.. i shouldnt be burdened by this.. its not like im bankrupt or dont have a house to stay in or have no money for food.. its just acceptance.. i want to feel accepted.. part of the team.. thats a really important feeling to have for a newbie..
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