update

wow.. its been a month since i last posted something? haha.. oppss.. well, there is a reason.. its coz i was preoccupied with something.. a change in my life which i tried really hard to accept.. i had no one to share my thoughts with.. only God.. and i didnt really talk to Him either.. coz i was thinking that it's something i must accept coz its for the happiness of others so no use talking.. till i talked to my cousin, i found out that i dont even know what i was feeling.. till someone called me to talk, that i broke down.. cried on the phone.. haha.. i had been keeping it in. till someone who cared just asked me.. 'so how are u'? and that left me crying for 1 minute, unable to talk.

it got my mind off the candidates for awhile.. but after this phase was over, the thoughts of the candidates came back.. but i think im finally over them.. but new prob has risen. i dont think it'll go anywhere so i should just shove it aside and be myself..

and oh, i went for my friend's wedding! long story.. u dont know how much effort was it just to get my clothes and how much i spent! goshh.. i dont wanna think about that but overall, it was a good night. wished to lepak after the wedding but no one to lepak with.. 1 group has another group of frens.. 1 group loves clubbing.. 1 group stays too far away.. 1 group im no longer that close with.. so? should i find a new group? haha..

i dont know why but i find that i cant focus these days.. dont know how to explain. but im feeling better la nowadays. this friday got Connect Group meeting.. and im undecided.. to join my cousin's Connect Group or join this other lady that invited me to her group.. i know my cousin wants me to join his and i sensed the disappointment when i told him bout the other group.. but, since i dont know them, i should find the group that im more comfortable with right? wait.. i dont know anyone.. thats scary.. reminda me of australia.. oh no... not good.. oh well, i'll just take it positively and look forward to a great weekend! :D