Moving On

i need to get u out of my head.. i know i said so the previous time but im not very successful in doing so! if u knew about this, i bet you'd feel so proud! or would u think im a sucker? haha..i dont know how i managed to forget the previous one.. i guess out of sight, out of mind works? it might too this time.. go away.... ...

When i think of u 'S', i just sighhhh.. i know u screwed up.. i hope u wont go back down that path.. so many people's hearts are aching for you.. i dont think u know im one of those aching.. but i just pray that u'll be safe.. i dont know what are ur conditions now, but im so worried i'd shed tears the moment i see u there.. all i can do is pray.. and i hope u do too..

u know, when u read amazing miraculous bible stories, it doesnt seem real at all.. maybe we read without really giving it a thought.. like how moses parted the red sea, how jonah ended up in a fished belly, how joseph was sold off to egypt, put in jail for something he did right! yea.. he did something right and yet, things got worse for him.. we all know that after that, he lead a great life.. but imagine those years in prison.. i bet its not a nice place to be.. how could he hold on to God? to His promises? and continue to trust in Him?? this is the part of the story that i find truly amazing.. coz if i were Him, i'd be blaming God all day.. walking around in prison, sulking with a sour face.. it wouldnt be hard to spot me in prison if u wanted to come and visit.. just look for the angriest and sulkiest girl! hahahhaa! personally, the story of Joseph is my most favourite of all time.. i remember the first time i read the story, i wouldnt put it down! lying down on my bed, i read till evening.. even though it was getting dark, i didnt wanna put the book down to turn on the lights! Joseph, i really wanna meet u.. u are truly an inspiration to me.. =)

moving on.. the decision is easy.. but to utter the words to you, its so tough.. the decision was actually made so long ago.. but...its just so so hard to say goodbye.. i dont wanna part.. all those memories.. i know if we say goodbye, we wouldnt keep in touch so much already.. but i really value u all alot.. i dont know when, but it'll be real soon.. soon...